♥ Sunday, August 31, 2008
11:31 PM
Happy 51st Birthday to Malaysia!
Independence the 51st the Malaysia!
Haha.
Special Merdeka Concert at One Borneo.
With Gary!!! Haha. Count down with his fan.
Including Pristty and me.Went to see him last night.
Almost 1 reach home. Out at 4.30pm.
But reach One Borneo at 6pm.
Pristty put the plane to me again. Haiz, sigh!
She always did that to me. Take it as a habit.
But sometimes, I really feel very anrgy and sad.
She told me, 4.30 pm at she's alone in One Borneo.
I told her very early, 4.30pm I will go there to meet her.
When 4.15pm, I called her. She said, she at Karamunsing.
I am going to city mall alone, and go One Borneo by taxi.
But when the time I called her, what she told me.
Gosssssssssshhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!
My tears really squeezing beside my eyes.
Not sad, is just feel weird. Feel weird to the weird attitude!
I really don't know how long I have to endure her again!!
I had be patient again and again.
Last time, she wanted to abandon me with other friends that I don't know very well.
Or else, I will be alone. What the F*ck???!!!
I really felt angry, I cant scold, because I don't know what to scold.
And she wont know my feeling.
Because I will not to do this to her. Because I KNOW THE FEELING VERY WELL!!
I will not to do this to my friend, unless it's urgent.
But however, I will inform them earlier. Do what I need to do!
Every of my closer friends did this to me! Why?
All because of love. They mean it that love is more important than friends.
Who care you're alone. I just need my love now, you better get lost!
All the words in their mind.
And me, to be alone. I dont need to bag them to stay.
If they know which is important, they will stay you.
If no, means in their heart. YOU ARE JUST A DOG!
A dog that I want you to follow, then you can follow.
If no, get lost from my life.
The feeling, let me drop my tears all the time.
I scolded Pristty, she told me "Dont say those words to hurt me".
This let me more angry.
"Wah, I hurt you or you hurt me oh? I really cant stand anymore la ok. You dont think that day you left me alone at One borneo I wont cry eh! Yes. In front of you, I'm strength. But do you know because I know that you are weak, so I must be strength, if not what can i do? Weak together? Cry together? Kill ourselves together? You always left me alone, I also don't want to say anything. Because I know you cant do anything, I can sacrifice myself to let you do what you want to do. But, you all hurt me again and again. WHO MORE HURT? Ask yourself!!!"
I replied to her.
I really don't know what is the reason of I need to be patient!!!!!
What's the stupid reason??!! Tell me!!!
I just want to tell anyone of you,
No matter how staunch is the person, they will have a weak moment too.
They would fall their tears too.
It's just because you cant see they fall their tears,
So you can do anything to them.
But I never do such thing to my friends.
Today, finally I know what's a true friend.
An example like Kei.
I cant forget she's such a super nice friend.
Her heart has a good balancer.
She know how to balance everything.
Not like the others..............................
