Satire
♥ Monday, March 8, 2010
12:43 PM
It's quite sarcasm.
I am so embarrassing to go back the track for training.
Go back to face all the medalists there.
Let me think .... The medalists.
Seb, High jump & 100m, gold medals.
Asif, 100m & 400m, silver and gold medals respectively.
Nick gave up to create a greater success.
Went Philipine for Fencing competition.
Lupa, 200m final.
Mei Jiun, 100m and 100m relay, gold medals.
And I ????? Nothing at allll.
That's seriously such a sarcasm.
The night before yesterday, I keep wondering bout the relay for tomorrow.
I keep thinking, if Mei Jiun can, there's nothing that I cant.
We training together !
I'm the second baton runner, I blast at all. " Why people can, I cant ? " the words appear in my mind that time.
I tried my best to blast, chased up the people at front, the important is dont ever let other runners faster than me.
But last last, the runners there are were too fast.
There's no chance to get medal. So......
I was quite emo that time. I meant, very verrryyy disappointed that time.
And now, I'm still kinda disappointed....
I tell myself, higher expectation, higher disappointment.
Perhaps this satire brought a bigger impetus to do better.
Good luck for me !
Reason
♥ Saturday, March 6, 2010
9:16 PM
The first day of competition.
I was so excited to run for my 100m.
Heats, I got 2nd.
I have expected for the final.
After rest, went back to stadium. My 3rd home. =)
Most of the time, I'm in my own home.
Second, in school. Third, stadium.
I'm so excited to see the final list.
I keep thinking which lane I'm in, which place I will get, everything.
When I prepared everything, I went to the reception check out the final list. That was soooo shock. I'm not in the final list. And Mj was in the forth lane ( best time ).
That time she was so worried bout will she lose to Madeline.
And me ? I went back to the seats, watch the finals.
I cant even figure out why I was standing on the seats and she is in the final ? I cant even expect, imagine and figure.
What is the reason ? * Pooomm * the starting alert, all the runners ran as fast as all their energy.
I keep on shouted at Mj. Something impossible, fantastic happened. Mj was the first of 2010 Mssd 100m Girls A.
Someone who always training with me, who I train with regularly, 3 times a week. She is a champion !
That time, my heart was soooooo ..... Should I be happy or sad ?? Someone who always training with me got first, and I standing on the seats watch the final. Watch the one who always training with me got first.
Something that I never ever expect. That was so unexpected.
After that, my heart is so confuse.
I keep wondering why ? I cant find out the reason.
WHY ??? Why does she can do it ? And I cant do it ?
Someone who is always training with me.
She can do it, but I cant ??
I keep keep keep keep wondering why ? Why why why ??
Is it because she trains more serious than me ?
She trains harder than me ?
She does every of the workout by hard ?
Is it ???? And why can I be not in the final list ?
Why ?? This makes my heart fill in with soooo many question marks !
After the unexpected, I realize my own problem. And that cause the boundaries between us.
The boundaries that everyone and her with me.
TKIAC athletes all got a medal, either gold or silver.
But me ? I feel so emberassing. Soooo emberassing.
Now ? Should I quit or work harder, set a higher target for myself ?
What should I do ? Is this sport doesnt suit for me ?
Seriously, I am so disappointed.
