Destiny
♥ Wednesday, December 29, 2010
10:54 PM
Tomorrow, who knows ?
In the beginning of the year, Meng was so sure that she will be staying for senior 3.
But then, the earliest who leave was her.
Now she is in KL. I wish she can use to live in a new environment.
Dont miss us, tidy up the reluctant mood.
Started to another world. Just like how primary school to secondary school.
I wish her good luck, all the best in life.
Well. Back to me, my reality, my vexation.
Red House !! Haiyoooooooooo.
What God gave us is always always fair.
When you mean to get much, you should have lost some too.
I got Hikaru, Jordan Jude, Rebecca Lee, Valentina, Doryn, Ammie chin, Jialeng, Jerome, Daniel tang..... And much more
I'm telling that I love Red House sooooooo much !
And them as well. They love me, they love Red House.
But every good things happen with a reason.
In God's plan, you couldn't own every good things
And now.... My cheerleader, dancing leader, male captain and marching leader been changed to other classes!
WTF !! Discipline board again ?
I really started to hate this school.
The teachers have no brain.
Dont they know what they have done could affect a team very very much ? They really have no mind.
They just care bout their own.
Nevermind. This is what God gave me one of the mission.
I will go through it. Remember, I'm not alone.
This is the process, I should have enjoy.
When one day when years past, I will be grateful.
Because I've learnt from the mission.
And today its already until this step.
Remember the day I was still struggling to be captain.
And who knows ?
In the front of my way ahead, I will have so many frustration.
But one by one I had broke through it.
And in the future, I will be the same, be fit, be strong, be a leader, and lead my house.
This is such a destiny.
Thank God.
Amen.
What have I had ?
♥ Sunday, December 12, 2010
8:30 PM
Yesterday I went to a fair.
A further studies fair.
Two choices, Either New Zealand or Australia.
And then Kei and I went for a drink.
And chat. Like we did looonnnnnggggggg time ago.
We have a long time dint chat about this kind of thing.
A chat without cocks ! Bout a little bit privacy.
Bout guys ever appeared in our life.
Well, overall, bout love. ♥
We talked about jy, yyk, dt, jt..... Lol !
It's disgusting. Cause I had a lot. hahahaha.
She does not. Cause all the best memories that worth to recall fondlay was just the memories she spent time with her boyfriend.
Other guys are.... Just. Please dont think too much.
You all have no qualification to dominate a little pieces of space in her heart.
I know cause we have been years-friends. Years mean 10 years.
I'm too understand. She knows me well too. =D
But my life is totally different with her.
My life is so complicated. I always found a person that complicate my life. Make me confuse.
And after all, that guy was always always been the fireworks in my life.
Fireworks? That second was brilliant, beautiful.
After 3 or 4 seconds, after we've calm down,
You realise it has disappear in a very short moment
They gave you nice memories, but all was just what you could see, you couldn't feel.
It was like... Illusion. Was misperception.
When Kei asked what was the feel together with somekind of guys ?
I was.. stunt. I couldn't answer.
Cause the moment was too short. I couldn't feel anything.
And it's end of 2010 now.
Time flee. The distance between the last day of being his gf was 3 years.
To ask one's self. How many fireworks ever appear in my life ?
And which had paid out sincerity towards me ?
And I ever invest my sincerity ?
Yes. Yyk was the only who paid out sincerity. But I was the one who let go. And then the rest ? Except.... Benifits for ownself, there's nothing in their mind.
And I ? I ever paid out my sincerity to dt. Only.
But he treated my sincerity as fool. What ? *sigh*
And then, towards others ?
Actually I'm a picky lady.
I picked them because of their reputation.
And this is my selfishness.
To build some scandal with them, its enough.
And this is real me. I'm not a good person because I'm selfish.
But everyone born to be selfish. Isn't it ?
Everyone has selfishness.
Today I met Shaun. He's back. Wow.
He hug me in the first second when we met in Citymall.
Because it's really long time dint meet each other.
He is a guy who ever appear in my life when I have need.
He helped me. He consoled me.
We do have memories. A very warm and nice feelings when saw him.
I knew him 2 years ago.
When I was still with yyk.
He is a nice guy. He is helpful.
Was him bring me into track and field too.
He brought me too much happiness.
We were best friend.
Still, we are best friend.
And I realise, because of the reputation.
I have no true love.
Everyone is the same.
How I treat others, how others treat me.
This is the natural element.
Its okay. Because I have true friends.
The time
♥ Sunday, December 5, 2010
11:32 PM
There's nothing else as value as time.
In our life, the most important thing to appreciate aren't friendship, relationship, money.
It's time.
Because only time build us wonderful friendship, relationship.
One year friendship couldn't counted as short,
And couldn't counted as long as well.
But friendship built as how did we appreciate the time with our friends, the way we spend time with our friends.
I had just a short period with my friends.
But we spend our time usefully, meaningfully.
So our friendship is better than years-friendship.
No longer........ 28th Dec, 6th Jan, 11st Jan.......
3 days, 3 friends are gonna leave me soon.
I dont need any present and also there's no present can replace the best present to them,it's our time.
The time we ever spent happily together.
And those have all became our memories.
Dont sad because those happy memories wouldn't happen again.
But be happy because we had been built those happy memories together.
Friends, ( or our nickname, siiiissssttttttttttaaaaaaaa)
Be tough, be strong when face every problem.
Go through it like how we been through together during our S2 life.
Dont forget ! How much you all helped this captain been through every problem.
I nearly cry when one sentence suddenly appear in my mind.
' Dont forget, all of us are supporting you, you still have us, you are not alone' said Eva.
Girls, must remember. This sentence is always always in our mind.
I appreciate the time, memories.
You guys are the best friends that ever been mine.
Best in my recently life.
Senior life with no regrets after knowing you guys.
And lastly, we must spend time together.
Those time we left before one by one of our sistaaasss are leaving.
How much I wish now will be forever.
Stop the time, please.
