♥ Thursday, October 7, 2010
11:25 PM
To be a real team leader,
First of all,
We should know how to let go the pride and dignity,
Apologize all the time, eventhough you did not done anything wrong.
Next, we have to endure ! Endure to the infinity.
And we have to listen to everyone's opinion.
Lastly, we have to let go the desire of winning.
Only we can feel the fun of the progress and the real teamwork.
There's a little frustration in my team now.
There's some argues and quarreling.
And I ever think to give up my life,
I felt soooo down, and might can leave this sucks world.
Go to the dreamland.
But overall, I realized that it a damn fucking stupid thing.
How can I give up easily.
Leaders have to be able to stand the frustration.
As chinese idioms ' 经一事，长一智。’
At last, I always learn more than people who hurt me.
And also from people's discontend and discrimination
Seek for perfection and fullest !
But this time I do not know whether my decision is wrong or right.
I've let go the desire of winning, letting the confidential leaks out, work with the other teams.
Which all I've promised him.
Maybe he is just toooo naive that trusting everyone has no intention to him.
I'm really feel weird.
Is it other teams will really really, sincerely work with us ?
Or they just playing tricks, grab our ideas to exceed us ?
And he said " Dont get mad if we lose ".
I wont get mad if we lose with our poorer abilities.
But I will get fucking mad if they win with tricks !
And I ask my again, Fun or Win, which more important ?
Should I really really really let go the desire of winning.
We worked so hard to invest but just ruin in his hands ?
Am I willing to do so ?
I wont ever trust that frienship is more important than winning.
As an athlete, I would be most understand the feelings.
Because no friends in war.
He think that we should be friends, no fighting.
But in real competition, people will never ever care bout your fucking feelings.
All they want just win !
I'm fucking scare of it.
Please, could anyone tell me what to do ?
This is a really serious decision to make.
Lord,
Give me the guidance to let me know,
when to hold on and when to let go.
And the grace
to make a right decison with dignity.
Amen.
Men can plan, but God arrange for us.
It's all bout fate.
Imma doomed to lose or to win ?
But human can just calm to accept.
Ofcourse human can pray, God listen to our prayers.
May God bless us, bless Red House.
