♥ Monday, July 27, 2009
7:56 PM
Weird day???
Today, all the friends sitting around me were absent.
But it's very good.
Because I can totally pay attention to the class.
First time, I did really paid attention to the class.
Happy for myself. Hahahahaaha~~~
2 weeks left til the exam.
I had to start my study.
Because this semester, I really need to work harder.
For my 2-month holiday!! ^^
And I got a lot of function for this August.
The ballroom dance-nite, and fly to Malacca with the athletics.
So, I must focus for my study now.
Then, enjoy everything. Haha!!
Phewwwwwwww, I sigh.
Sigh hardly.
He really did seen my blog.
First my blog, was expressing how I got my happy back.
He said, he is happy for me. Hmmm???
Really? But nevermind. It's all nevermind.
I was just shocked he really seen my blog.
I also saw Pristty's blog.
She changed a lot. Last time she's such emo.
But now, no matter how XXX treat her, she is still stay happy.
Stay optimist.
So happy that she really did changed a lot.
Oh my dear........ Thanks god!
You blessed everyone around me.
Thus, I hope he will be happy too.
He will get her, and bless him everyday be happy^^!!!!
♥ Sunday, July 26, 2009
10:01 PM
The boring mode~~~~
I awake, still in dreaming.
I slept at 1 last night.
Was on the phone whole night.
Talked with Ah Weng.
Was thundering, and heavy rain last night.
But it stopped after 30 minutes.
I'd such a long time didn't blogging.
I wanted to post, but in my life,
It's too boring, so I don't know what to talk bout.
But now, I got a lot of expression.
Finally, I walked out from the darkness world.
Since that day, we chat on the MSN conversation.
He keep on cheer me up.
And I really knew, in his heart.
He didn't even think to persuade any of us.
He asked me let go everything, and forget bout the memories.
So, once he talk bout it.
And I really need to follow.
He is always that serious to me.
But I don't want to.
Eventually, I still couldn't endure it...
He tears me down again.
But now, how happy. I'd really forget some of him.
Not at all. But at least, is the first step of succeed.
Thanks.
How much I hope you can seen those posts before I'd post on.
♥ Thursday, July 9, 2009
5:20 PM
Part of life::..
We chat last night.
About a lot a lot of us.
I cried last night before I slept.
Know? How sour is my heart?
I also don't know. Too hurt.
I never demonstrate out my feelings to a guy that I like.
He is the first one.
I'm really too weak.
Why I cant just let go?
I told him I don't dare to face it everything.
Cause I'm really very scare to accept it.
Why am I so weak?
Even I also cant understand myself.
He keep on ask me why, I cant even give him an answer.
How hard to express my feelings now.
My heart really broken up into pieces.
He tears me down too.
But something I really had comprehended.
He never like me........
I keep on remind myself. He never like me.
But I still cant do it to let go everything.
I told him is very suffer to pretend being happy.
He told me, he cant see I'm happy, and I'm sad.
What the? You did??
I cant even feel it.
He really tear me down.
I'd already all give up.
But I cant let go.
But he never can be understand.
Because he wasn't me.
How could he can understand??
If he really did, why he will still did this to me?
♥ Saturday, July 4, 2009
5:16 PM
Teacher's day::..
I ready up everything of Teacher's day.
But between, our form teacher just came the last 5 minutes.
Since she was not giving me any face to cheer me up doing these stuff.
So I'm not giving her any face too.
So what to do? I don't do any work after the party.
I'm just standing beside and look at her do everything.
I'm just be like that. Why?
Why did she need to be like that?
I don't understand. Being a form teacher should not be so narrow-minded.
Gosh~! Maybe she is just not enough experience to be a form teacher.
How to take good care and understanding to the sutdents.
How well, I just wish to pass 2009 as faster as possible.
It's left me so many bad memories.
These few days, he found me to have chat.
He asked me, why I keep run away from him?
Why whenever I saw him, I must run another round to escape him?
Why? I'm asked myself too.
I know, because look at you, I'll feeling bad.
Know? I'm still not at the time to accept every bout our memories.
What had you done to me?!
I don't even dare to accept the truth.
The truth happened since that day until now.
I'd still not accept it yet.
Dont you ever ask me? NO!!!
You didn't. One sorry, and you left and never come back.
You never ask how am I? Because you really thought I'd let go everything.
I pretend being happy everyday, and how suffered am I.
Then now you asked me, why am I escape from you everytimes.
How do you want me to tell you? *sigh*
♥ Wednesday, July 1, 2009
9:23 PM
Volley moments~~~
2124, I'm here.
These two weeks I'm playing volleyball.
Interclass competition.
It's awesome. I like sports a lot actually.
We won the first match that day( Monday ).
Keep it on.
Try it our best!
Cheer up.
Tomorrow will be the 2nd match.
Well, be confident, we can do it!
How long I din post any in my blog.
I feel like very suffer doing in my life.
I'm trying hard to let go everything.
Everyday, everytimes I saw him.
Those memories are keep appearing in my mind.
Until now, I don't even dare to look at him.
Everytimes I look at him, I'm feeling very weird.
Very very bad, it's not nice.
I run away from him, or skip away from his eye.
Or I have to pretend I don't know him.
I have to pretend being happy, use it as my mask.
2 months ago, and now.
I'm still dropping my tears. But he doesn't know.
