It ends.
♥ Tuesday, September 28, 2010
10:49 PM
2249 I'm alone in the 2nd living room.
And I'm so down now.
Wanna express and release my stress and emotional.
First of all, it's bout him. Sounds ' again '.
But this time is for seriously hopeless and I've decide to let go.
As I can love easily so I can let go easily.
And this is me.
Cause to invest everything on someone who doesn't even know how to appreciate, that's wasting !
I never hope to own him.
But wanted to let him know, no matter how there's still someone always support him and help him.
Sincerely ! I mean it.
I told him, I'm helping and doing this for him because I hope he can do whatever he likes since he is in the school for the last year.
He is the most hardworking dancer I ever seen.
But the weakness of him is a poor listener.
Too bad. Perform as a guest star is much better than a competitor. This is a real nice chance.
But he just wanna dance all the way.
After watching the video in assembly,
Only I realised there's still a lot of thing I'm not understand bout him.
He is a very stubborn person.
But he is amazing just the way he is.
I've demonstrate how much I like him to him,
And obviously make sense !
He felt like nothing.
I should let go and I knew, that's all for us.
I'm a person who always keep my own principle.
And it has touch my legal limits.
I gonna return and back to the reality of mine.
How much reluctant to those sweet memories.
I never tell anyone the way he hold my hands,
The warmness of his shoulder.
Cause I never feel really happy.
When he gave me the happiness,
I started to be afraid when will he collect it back.
What is he thinking ?
And now, I totally understood.
Except benefits, nothing at all in his mind.
All the way he being nice to me, to my friends,
is just trying to get benefits.
No matter its for bsb or the talent competition.
I cant accept someone like this.
And it ends with this lamentable ending.
Perhaps I'm too naive that trusted miracle could happen.
♥ Sunday, September 12, 2010
3:34 PM
Back to Reality, back from dream, back to Home.
KL trip with Mr.Yee and the football team for 5 days 4 nights.
What a dammmmnnnn funnnyyy trip ever !!!
The guys are soo funny.
And the girls have LimMeng, Kei, Kewei, Cynthia and I.
Dayyyemmm. Before sleep the one hour, we keep on laughing, laugh more than we talk ? LLOLLL!!! So damn funny.
And 5 people in one room, kinda narrow. Hmmm.
First day, SungeiWang
Second day, Sunway Pyramid
Third day, Genting
Forth day, KLCC - SungeiWang - MidValley.
With these girls, I have lots of fun, no quarrel, and shop alot !!
LOL !!!
I shopped for brandsssss. Owwwweeee !! Hahaha.
And the trip made me have a greater relationship with him.
Hmmmm. It's what a damn !
I do not know does he like me, but I do like him.
All along the journey with him,
I really would like to have a time machine to stop that moment... Like.. Forever !
But when I with him, I felt so unreal.
Because I know it's impossible.
Will not be reality forever.
And I'm putting any effort on it so that I have no disappointment.
I knew everything will just be memories and not my future or my life.
It's lucky that I have a memories which he is involve.
Should I be happy we are friends or
Should I be sad we are just friends ??
I want him to be part of my life, not part of my memories.
And those memories are killing me to hell.
Keep on going round and round in my mind, even I dreamt bout him.
But somtimes I feel emo its not only bad memories,
because I know those happy memories will not happen again.
And that's forever memories.
Those memories are keep confusing me,
does he like me ?
