♥ Monday, May 31, 2010
12:07 PM
Was that you ?
You seem so different. You seem changed a lot.
In my memory, you weren't like that.
You seem do not remember me.
Do you ? Do you still remember me ?
Saw you still have those nervous feelings.
Saw you still have the first feelings.
Still want to retain those feelings.
But I would know, was impossible.
Because I was the one gave up for the relationship.
And you would impossible to accept someone who hurt you once again.
Was my fault.
But you were too dislike for me that time.
You couldn't satisfy me.
Sorry. Explain wont work.
But you are a nice guy.
Shouldn't have this kind of life.
Viewed you facebook, would like to take part of your life, would like to understand are you going great now.
And I have seen your life.
Your life are... Good. But I do not like it.
Perhaps this is the way you feel great.
Drink, drank, drunk.
Well, cheeer up anyway.
We ever love each other vigorously,
but now is just a stranger.
Which you dont even remember you had a gf before.
Perhaps our first met was wrong.
♥ Saturday, May 22, 2010
11:16 PM
Like everything rush over me.
Was sooooo busy this week.
I just took 3-4 hours to sleep.
Assignments ! Project ! Basketball ! Examm !!!
These stuffyy drive me crazy ! Almost get mad !!
Wooohhh ! So stress !
Exam is coming ! What now ?
I dont know where to begin ?
So blank, empty...... =(((
I ly on my bed for half to one hour then I can turn into bed.
I keep thinking something nonsense.
And thennn.. My tears drop.
Those scene keep appearing in my mind.
If you were here, I really wanna tell you...
I really ever like you. Sincerely. Seriously.
But my sincere, you put as a fool.
I trusted at you, 100% wont lie at me.
But you did.
And you made those memories become a humiliation.
Perhaps I should take these humiliation as a habit.
Because no one will trust I really, sincerely ever like you.
But I want you to understand, you take a girl's sincere as a fool is a very rude action.
That cause so much hurts. You do not know.
Because you never try to understand.
Everyday I heard those rumour, those humiliation rush against me, but then I still have to be staunch.
Pretend I dint heard anything !
Actually I had already let go. But when I heard, you ! You are the one who humiliated me.
I cant even accept it.
Now everytime I think bout it, I keep on crying. Hardly.
And you should realize that, I did not look at you dy.
Because I dont have that courages to look at someone who hurt me then humiliate me and take my sincere as a fool.
But in the public I still have to pretend like I'm okay.
Was seriously tired to keep rolling my tears in my eye.
That's very embarrassing if my tears drop.
And let people think I am so stupid, busted.
Cry over someone who doesnt even care bout my feelings.
So now what ? From the beginning until the end.
You are still in here. My heart.
I never let go.
The Road Not Taken
♥ Sunday, May 9, 2010
3:01 PM
So what if I regret ?
We often make decision in our life.
Which The Road Not Taken is a very good example.
We choose the way we go for.
The way you have the chosen, you cannot regret.
It may affect your entire life,
Or you may learnt a lot from it.
I as an athlete has to make a decision.
But as my capability, I should go for study.
Who knows ?
The successful of an athlete always come from their experience.
Experience gained from running against world class athletes is one of the best possible way to improve yourself " said coach.
This is right.
As their result today causes by their competition at the first.
But I ? Want what result ?
I am not born to be, just train randomly.
The training for these few months do let me improve a lot.
Dont I need a good result ???
This may be the first and the last International Competition for me.
Chance is just be given once, if I dont seize it I will be very very regret for sure.
But exam is blocking my way to go for it.
I have to do good in both side.
But how ? Once I'm not focusing, I wont even doing good in one side.
So I have to choose only one !
Which ? Which one ?
I am so confusing. Can anyone please help me !
