The lil thing
♥ Sunday, December 30, 2012
8:16 PM
When there's a lil thing mess up your life.
Just someone doesn't matter slowly turn to someone who change your whole life.
Sometimes,
Life is all about the moment, the moment of impact that change your whole life.
But what if someday, you and him, will be stranger, maybe for the rest of life ?
Stranger ? I mean.. Stranger with some memories.
And today is the last second day of the year.
Time flies. Its been a year.
And the end of 2012, we end up like strangers.
I still wonder, have I ever across your mind ?
Have our memories ever make you miss me ?
Or miss us?
For the rest 3 months, everything changes.
Use to have my life, everything goes accordingly.
Use to be good and happy, and enjoyed those awaits moment.
But those months, I was out of my mind.
My soul wasn't with me for all the time.
Smoke, drink, night out everyday.
All I wanted to do was forget you, this.. asshole.
Just to get back to my life and act like it doesn't bother me at all.
I hang out with guys, try to get into someone better than you.
But feelings get so numb, and couldn't find anyone better than you.
AND couldn't fall for anyone as well.
I was once think that all the waiting is regret.
I should have get a life, I go to clubs, drink, smoke, enjoy.
But all in a sudden, I felt something inside. That's terrible.
Something miserable.
When looking at guys hugging girls, all in their mindset was just flirting.
Who the hell will still fall for kinda girls, drinking, smoking, clubbing.
Felt so bad bout myself. Really.
Since when I make myself a whore?
This asshole just changed my life so much.
Yet, I still miss him a lot.
Still, when I think bout us, a little pain inside.
Felt sorry for the guys around me.
I was just trying so hard to find something to replace him.
Eventually, theres no one can ever replace him.
Someone like him, no more.
Honestly, Im still waiting for the miracle could ever happen.
I believe in fate. It will lead us to the right way and go back to how we used to be.
He's just the right one.
How could I forget someone like him, thou.
