Unacceptable presents
♥ Saturday, August 11, 2012
1:55 AM
In everyone's sight, I'm a lucky girl.
My parents give me the best. A trip to USA, everything I wanted.
Well, I rather use all of the things I had to exchange a overseas high education.
Currently, I am studying in Open University for this Executive Diploma in Real estate agency.
Part time course, night time classes, 3 days a week.
When I was 17 or 18, I wish I could study in a huge compound university in somewhere western.
But in some financial problem, I've changed my mind.
Even in Kuala Lumpur, or somewhere Asia, I am just okay with it.
I just simply wish I can study in a real University, which is mean can meet lot of friends and have different kind of activities.
I understand that University is not a place for party rock or having fun.
But isn't it a place for experiencing ? Experience different kind of stuff.
As I am who I am, I like to explore myself and being active in what I am doing.
This is what a student should do and experience, isn't it ?
My brother has this really good chance doing it in USA.
Even there was a really tough times in the past 4 years.
But who doesn't ?
Even it was tough, but it worths. I believe.
Because after all, what he got was unique knowledge, experiences and thoughts.
Who doesn't want to be smart and special in what we are doing ?
It was my dream to enjoy my Uni life. Well, who doesn't has this dream.
My parents gave everything to my brother but not me.
This remind me a passage I 've learnt in senior 3 chinese class.
Parents really do love and care for their children is to think for their further future,
Instead of their one-year-plan or even nearer.
My parents have this 10-years-plan for my brother.
But I don't even have a plan. Even a year plan.
I wanted to plan it myself, but I do not have ability to do it myself.
The only choice I have is to stay in the homeland for the rest of my life.
My present is having classes with bunch of adults, uncles or aunties.
My present is staying in KK with no further future.
My present is being driver of my grandmothers.
My present is listening to others' orders.
My present is nothing, no life and to suffer in grievances of doing what I don't like.
My present is to listen and obey what others' say.
Parents dont understand cause they don't feel it by their heart, like... Sincerely.
What suffer in my heart they should have known.
But they don't.
I am not blaming, I am just heartbreaking.
Cause been through 19 years, they are still don't understand,
This is not I want.
